Update

Well, the Christmas week was a bust both financially and health-related. I ate what I wanted and spent what I wanted.

We received a surprise bonus at work - a month's salary. Instead of socking it all away, I went shopping. I took Tom's girls to a movie and dinner ($60) and bought Shawn a nice diamond-accented bracelet ($275). Add a few other 'extras' and I'm pretty sure I've spent at least half of the bonus. I'll give things till Friday to clear, check the bank account and move whatever is left over.

I ate whatever I came across. I now weigh 180 pounds - more than I have ever weighed. AND that's with walking Bailey at least an hour a day all week long. I am so sick of eating. I think most of the junk is out of the house so maybe I can start my New Year's Diet tomorrow.

I'm trying to not feel like a total failure with life.