The Beginning

I've decided that to tackle my issues, I must be honest about them. No more skirting around the facts and sticking my head in the proverbial sand. This blog will serve as my therapist, forcing me to really look at where I am in two categories, where I want to be and how my journey is going.

The first category will be finances. I simply owe way more than I'm worth. And I'm tired of hiding it. Before I can deal with it, though, I know I have to say my total debt out loud. I've never done that - I have never spoken or written down exactly how much I owe in credit card debt. I give ballpark numbers or 'after I make this payment' estimates. So, here goes - to date, I owe $6,008 to Visa and $10,093 to MasterCard. I also just paid Discover Card, $285. There are a few charges pending on that card so I will probably owe another $300 eventually. I owe a total of $16,400. There, I've said it - out loud. And I cringed. I want it gone.

The next category will be weight. As of this morning, I am at an all-time high of 179. I lay in bed at night feeling my heart struggle with the high blood pressure. I wake up with aching knees, hips and back from the weight. I'm outgrowing my fattest clothes and can wear exactly four items from my closet. I am killing myself. My intention with this category is to lose 5 pounds a month. That's all - just five pounds. The junk food is over, the walking begins. I may check into yoga, if my finances allow me to do so. I want it gone.

So, there are my categories. I have a strategy for the weight and need to create one for the finances. That will be my next blog entry.